I truly damn f*cking lovee him ,

I laid my love for him , but its not happening .

But what am i supposed to do now ?

He love HER but not me .

My heart is totally stabbed deep by a knife

i cried hardly in the night and in my beauty sleep

why does all dilemas happen to me ?

does god hate me ? if he is , then why ?

i pray to Allah everyday , went to religious class every saturday

what else ? went for ngaji near afghan there , then ?

why am i to blame ? why my love doesnt exist in me ?

i lied to my friend that im not loving him ,

so that i wont hurt her love cos i really care for her .

Love is hurting my own lovely heart that god gave

Songs that are meant for love , doesnt help

now he 's with her happily together

am i doing the right thing ? by not telling him earlier that i love him ?

bcos i was scared to tell him , im afraid that he wont talk to me again ?

Am i too late , to have someone i really love ?

i had done the biggest mistake ever !

i wish i had hym ,

it seems that its far too late .

i wish i was given a second chance .

it seems so hard for me to live without hym in my life ,

i've tried every way but it's not working ,

why am i in this situation ?

why dont i deserve hym ?

i really dont know how long i could be like this .

it seems worthless crying ,

he's moving on , and i cant stop hym to do so .

i wonder how can i live without hym .

she's more better to deserve hym , not me .

No one seems to understand me ,

it seems that friends and families are just a crap .

i really dont know what to do ?

Moving on , just seems difficult to forget hym .

i swear its hurting and difficult for me .

To _ _ _ _ _ , i really love youu , im really hurting my life for you .